End of what?

The last time when I've learned that I was out of TIP for good, I told to myself that this major event is worth blogging for. (I know, I know. "Blogging" is not an actual word. But who cares?)

Eight days had passed yet I feel that I am not equipped to install my thoughts about my "lay off". It's not an actual dismissal due to incompetence. Based from admin's precalculated inspection(?), my tenure will not be sufficient to finish my masteral degree in PLM. They said that if I take my comprehensive exam this December and factor in the months that I would consume to accomplish my directed study, I won't make it. Yup, that's what they said. Hindi ko raw matatapos.

Solution: End of contract. That's it. Like that. Ganun na nga.

I found out that I have no job last Monday, the day after I cleared myself of papers and whatnots. It's the usual roundabout. Every end of semester, faculty members are required to finish the clearance lest he won't get his last salary. I've learned my lesson in the past of about getting tardy about it and all so I made sure I would finish early. I did. And so did the news.

I have a question. How should one feel if he ever loses a job? Some people would feel crushed about it. They even go hysterical. Oddly, I never feel like that as of this moment. I feel... blank. Numb. Like as if the news has never hit me.

I was saddened at first, yes, because who wouldn't feel like that if you've had good rapport and closeness with your students. I was lucky enough to meet interesting students, the ones you'd love to tell your friends about having him/her as a student. I would probably miss those kind of people.

Once I had a student who got herself to a hospital because she drank too much coffee in preparation for our exams. I know it's a serious case but I find it funny. Am I that ruthless? Takot bumagsak sa akin yung student na yun. Hehehe. Or how most of my students become loving sweethearts in the end because of some group projects that I assigned to them. Grabe. Parang every semester eh ganun yung takbo ng klase ko. Hehehe. My classes are full of events. Daig pa nga ang isang noontime show sa dami ng eksena. May iyakan, tawanan, prangkahan, asarahan. May lalaglagan pa nga. Yung tipong they would vote out one of their group members because of so many varying reasons. Parang Survivor. Sabi ng ibang students, parang Extra Challenge daw yung case study ko. Hehehe. For sure I'll miss these scenes. Too bad I can't come back for more.

(Will finish this my people. More to come.)